College application angst

by Lynn on November 18, 2013

For the past 17 years, I’ve planned every next step of my kid’s life.
A few weeks ago, her future fell out of my hands.

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She’s applying to college.
I can’t MAKE any college accept her.
I have no idea which college is right for her.
I do not know where she will be a year from now.

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I’m excited about this next step.
I’m also cloaked in a nervous fog.

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Will her roommate be kind?
Will the curriculum excite her mind?
Have I taught her everything she needs to know?

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I’m beginning to realize there’s no way I can teach her everything.
The world is a much different place than it was when I went to college.
I have no idea what she will face, or who she will know, or what she will study.
But I do know who she is now…and I have  faith we’ll be proud of who she will become.

This post is brought to you by The Future.
Today used to be tomorrow…perhaps the future isn’t so scary after all.

{ 3 comments }

Jo H. November 18, 2013 at 1:19 pm

You have it exactly right, Lynn – the future will unfold a day at a time, and it will be okay. She has the tools to make her way, and she will not be alone – the internet is a huge advantage: emails, instant messaging, texts – so many ways to unobtrusively keep in touch. My mother had to wait until Sunday each week for my reverse-charges phone call! (and that was more contact than most kids had with their families) Good luck to you all, I know how heart-wrenching it is from that side of the experience, but the years will pass so fast and she’ll be graduating before you know it.

Diane November 18, 2013 at 6:30 pm

Lynn, I feel your angst but am here as living proof that both you and your daughter will survive this. There might be setbacks but they all work out in the long run. Trust the job you have already done in rearing her and both of you might actually enjoy the next four years. Good luck to her!
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Cottage By The Sea November 20, 2013 at 10:50 am

I’ve done it five times now and it never gets easier to let them go. But once they do, and you realize that you have raised a strong, independent young person up till now, it starts to come back to you. All the things you sacrificed as a mom will come back to your child again and she will remember the name she bears. It’s the next step and can be very exciting! It has its ups, and downs for you both (remember, she will miss you too! Soon your little bird will fly and your relationship will take on new meaning as it’s supposed to and that my friend, is a beautiful moment, with lots more to come.

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